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think again 10:03 p.m. 2004-01-23 Seeing the three of you together below i'm struck again at how i am no longer a part of this family, and its entirely my doing. I've alienated myself from all of you, and when i see you that way i don't regret it. I can no longer envision myself as part of that lucid world don't want to wake up to that. But its undeniably wicked, this feeling of detachment because i have nothing to hold onto. Noone to hold onto me. I'm cut off from the things that matter and these things avaliable to me hold absolutely no appeal, this world is dead without you there to color it. back & forth |